I want to live life on my terms.. just like the Coca Cola commercial.
I want to be able to flex my creativity freely.. without someone taking it away from me.. or making tons of money off of it. It means getting to the top of a hill.. and the hill is stupid. All you CEOs and venture capitalists are lucky. Give me some of your money so I can cheat. Otherwise I'll have earned something and I mean.. I shouldn't have to do that.. if you check my record there is a ton of history there where I don't follow the rules so why should this be any different?
OK fine.. I'll establish goals. I have this whole portion of my life ahead of me that is choc full of retarded tedium. Oh.. file my taxes.. yippee!.. or pay off my car, or my mortgage.. oh joy. I can't wait to live through tomorrow, it will be wednesday and you know how fun wednesday is. I'm going to get a college degree so I can have earned what I accomplished 5 years ago. I'm not used to this pace.. this.. stopped pace. Nothing changing.. nothing growing.. I'm not even growing anymore.. I feel so stale.
Stale chips.. moldy salsa.. that taste in my mouth.. that means I drank too much.. tangled words trying to find the deeper meaning that I aspire so much to find. knowing that I already know the answer.. and believing in the greater good. knowing how you feel. knowing how I feel.
knowing how things really are.. its better than thinking you know.. without knowing.. or is it? Your world or mine? They both suck these days. My advice: drink heavily. Play Xbox 360. Keep numb. Stop spending money. Brace for impact. Humanity is tired at a time when we need to be alert.
First, Last.. Open, Closed..
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Beer and xbox 360......got to keep your mind off the daily grind somehow.
Thanks for having me over this past weekend. It was fun. Good thing you only live blocks away.
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[+] Comment () by Mikey G @ 02/01/06 11:06:39 AM {0}
Hell yeah brian :) that was a blast.. we should do it again! Life is good.
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[+] Comment () by Pricilla @ 02/01/06 11:28:05 AM {0}
Life itself is tired right?
You are changing, moving and growing at (obviously) a faster pace than you know...
The part of feeling like shit sucks, I know< endless really..... but yet the new begings come over and over again but still endless. ya know? All that is the deeper meaning I think that you dont realize you are stating and it is driving you... really
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[+] Comment () by kristine @ 02/06/06 04:39:12 PM {0}
sometimes one fixates on the minutia of life -- taxes, bills, household chores, clipping toenails. it is easy to get so caught up in the boring tedium that one forgets the big stuff.
focus on the things that give you joy and help you flash that beautiful smile you have. people will gravitate toward you.
as always, <3
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